Posted by: Elle | March 23, 2010

Welcome to my World

To get the introductions out of the way, my name is Elle. Pronounced like the letter, but spelled with a little more flair.

I come from a family being the oldest of many siblings, what today’s standards consider borderline outrageous, with a mother who has a history of self-destructive behaviour. I’ve been through a lot in the past ten years, and had ignored how it made me feel for eight. Through some supportive friends, and the landmark forum, I started to recognize and deal with these things, but it was very unsuccessful, and debilitating at times. The next year, as the hard things in life continued, I fell further and further into this dark bubble. It cost me so many things. Friendships, relationships and what I considered to be the best job in the whole entire world. January 8th was the last straw. I had a chance to save my job, and I put my whole heart and soul into doing so. I wasn’t going to lose the only thing that made life okay. I set real goals, real boundaries and made some pretty tough decisions. In the beginning, it was to save my job, but in the end, all the energy that I put in to saving my job ended up saving my life. February 16th ended up being the official day that I was no longer employed for that company, and was able to pick myself up within and be employed again within a week. It was then that I think I truly recognized my own power.  

Join me on the journey to truly loving life. It’s one thing to be told that, but another thing completely to get it! I’ll talk about the past, it’s neat to see how far I’ve come. I’ll talk about the future—the dreams and goals that keep life interesting. But mostly I’ll talk about the present. About the everyday challenges that life is throwing at me. I’ve found that it’s not always easy to be present, to be myself, but the more you work a muscle the stronger it gets. According to statistics, I should have a few kids, be addicted to drugs and drink way more alcohol than is recommended. But I’m not. So I must be doing something right.

I’m finding that it takes courage to overcome your fears and failures to teach you things, but I know that as I continue it’ll just keep getting easier and easier. Grab a journal, and join me. Hopefully we can support and inspire each other along the way.

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